Misled Hearts (Part 3 of 3)

I have this knack of helping out others without asking for anything in return. I wouldn’t mind extending a helping hand to my friends, for I was never known to turn anyone down. This irritated her and Dee told me that I should learn to leave some for myself. Apparently she knew, some people were taking advantage of my generosity and didn’t like it one bit. Hard as it may, I tried to do what she asked.

Today, I still wonder, what would happen if I talk to here sincerely about my feelings? I am the type of guy who falls easily. Instead of sulking on love, I would invest my time, keeping myself busy with my professional side, participate in basketball and bowling tournaments, and lead my village to sports campaigns, all for the sake of keeping my mind on something other than her. It would really drive me crazy if I didn’t, because when I fall, I really fall hard.

It is Valentine’s Day today and I wanted to give her something as usual. Prior to this, she said that she is already happy being my close friend. Puzzling as it may seem, I have no recourse but to step back, take these words into consideration. Maybe I am only infatuated by Dee. Maybe friendship alone is sufficient for her. So what is a guy to do? Hold back his feelings and just keep it in the vault of memories rather than face rejection up close?

I dream of one day telling Dee how much I like her, how much I would want to care for her and be her knight in shining armor. But as people would say, some things are better left unsaid than done. Love is also about making people happy. If the condition of our love is any indication, happy and enjoying each other’s company is concerned, I think this is enough to show for now, that I do care for her very much and given the chance, let her be happy with what we have for now. Maybe it’s better than getting into a relationship. I guess I will never know. But just a flash of her smile in my direction, changes my day, and lifts me up to cloud nine.

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